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I'm 19 and I've never had a boyfriend!! SOS

           As coronavirus sweeps across the world, I sit in my apartment forty-five minutes away from my hometown. When I'm not in class, I am here. Thoughts swirl and possibilities emerge in my cluttered room with clothes tossed aside or books scattered haphazardly on my desk.       This is dangerous.       You see, I found out that this boy I liked has a girlfriend. No biggie, right? Well, it kind of  feels like the end of the world. I'm sitting here in this apartment, rehashing my whole life up to this moment until the sky outside my window turns to ink.       Why can't I be that girl?      What is wrong with me?     I feel like running miles to the nearest hospital and getting my whole being checked. Is it because my face isn't symmetrical? I'm weird, right? Surely someone with a medical degree can give it to me straight and I can face life knowing it's not me, it's the genes. Or someone cast a spell that made me impossible to love. Or maybe I have a big